I’ve written a few posts in the past three days. Published none because the thoughts are not complete and I don’t want to articulate this in the wrong way.
This blog wasn’t always called AlwaysLauren. It started off being called Grant me the serenity.
Most of you (I assume) know that this comes from the serenity prayer which goes:
“God grant me the serenity to accept what I cannot change, courage to change what I can and the wisdom to know the difference”.
The serenity prayer is also the cornerstone of Alcoholics Anonymous. Those people know their shit. Whilst I am fond of a good alcoholic beverage I cannot count myself into their program because frankly, I wouldn’t qualify. (Footnote: The Artist tends to disagree here).
I also more days than not wear the serenity prayer on some engraved metal on my wrist. Chances are not a soul has noticed or even knows this. But it keeps me grounded.
Some of us feel too much. It’s not a bad thing but it tends to cause a bit of trauma.
The words help. For me. It’s a baseline that I return to and rationalise things.
At the moment I’m in the “courage to change what I can” stage. I think, without doubt, this is the most difficult part. What makes it worthwhile is that change, at the end of the day, if you orchestrate it yourself with a goal in mind, can only be good.
And as for the universe. I’m not a religious person, so we’ll leave it with the universe. It brings you things in strange ways, at strange times. Like my dog Koda. Straight from the man himself. Because he’s clever like that. And like this:
Last week my car drove me to a coffee shop I had no intention of having breakfast at to fill in time between school drop off and a meeting. An old friend was there. She’s reinvented herself as a life coach and someone stopped at our table to tell her how much she loves reading her weekly Facebook posts. Obviously (social media junkie that I am) I made enquiries and received my first Facebook update from her page yesterday. These were her words:
“Make the choice to stop doubting yourself and start believing that you can be who you want to be, you can make positive changes and you can live a life with purpose. You are wonderful and have a lot to offer the world, you just have to believe it!”
Wow people, isn’t that just the truth?
Wishing this on you – to the power of unicorns.
Love and light